Old friends

Had a short gathering with the 2g girls a short while back and we had a great time chatting over dinner and desserts. It's always so much fun whenever we meet, even though it was just dinner plus desserts.

They will all graduate in prolly a year or two and I'm sure they'll find great jobs. A few of them are attached too and I feel really happy for all of them.

It's really amazing to look back. I remembered I liked Jay Chou because half of them loved his songs and would gather to listen to his songs on someone's Walkman. We used to sing along to his songs too.

I also met up with Ya recently, along with Xt for dinner.

Thought of the good food trips we organized during our upper secondary school days and it was always a lot of fun and laughter hanging out and talking to him.

Sadly, I find my memories of my secondary school days getting blurred and I'm so afraid to lose them because they are the only reminders of what was once a beautiful time in my life.

Trying to jot them down as I go along but I really cannot remember certain details.. Moreover, I have no wish to remember the last two years and I'm glad that it's fading for that part.

I was (and still am) very thankful to Xh, Nana and BFF during my repeated year because they always came to keep me company. They prolly didn't know how hard it was for me during the final year and how much I cried for the first few months... Till Lewis came along and spurred me on.

I wished I could turn back time but I know that I need to wake up and stop wishing for the impossible.

But this time, I wished that I've treated Lewis better. I wished I never said and done a single hurtful thing to him.

I'm trying to make amends but it will never erase my guilt. Every night, certain memories come back to haunt me repeatedly... It's driving me insane.

Though I know I deserve to have to live with this.